Kohl-Eyed Reflections
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Sunday, December 3, 2023
The Heartache 2.0
Tuesday, October 24, 2023
"With People"
Someday in this life or in a parallel life, you will have the time for me and hopefully you will make up for all the moments when I did NOT cross your mind.
Because, you are the "nothing" that is on my mind, when someone asks me what I am over-thinking about.
I wish you will make up the time that you spent "With People" and not on me.
Because, I know, If I was in your place, I would have found the time to talk to you, unlike you.
I wish your "Ttyl" becomes "I want to talk with you now."
Because, you are never my later, and have always been my now.
I wish I get a reply to every single question I have asked.
Because you always get an answer even before you ask.
I wish you shower your love when you can’t, because anyone can do, when they can.
I have so much to give to you and nothing to receive but I guess, I am too much extra to ask for, for you.
Go find something less, because I deserve a lot more of you.
Saturday, October 21, 2023
The sinking situationship
This labyrinth of emotions, the intertwining of waiting for you or giving up on you, landing in a so-called realm of "situationship."
Where are we? Rather, Where am I for you?
Just like a ship, climbing great heights and plunging to profound depths, why does my heart soar up and plunge down in disappointment, thinking it needs you in any form? How more painful can this all be?
A text, a call or just the intent of you wanting me just the way I want you?
In the whirlwind, when I can calm myself, I realize, I don’t really need you.
It's a stark fact, a truth I can't deny. I can stand on my own, walk my path, and face the world without your presence.
But, Only if you knew, that you shouldn’t let me face this alone.
The sun will still rise, and the world will continue to spin. I don't need you for anything at all, and yet, here's the twist – I find myself needing you all the F****** time.
In the depths of my being, there is a tempest, a storm that rages with waves as high as a tsunami.
I wish you could see it, feel it, understand the turmoil that simmers within me.
You will ignore everything that I write in plain text for you and walk away sooner or later.
Will the situationship sink ? Your favourite word for me is no, but the answer is yes for this and like the past, I will never see the sea-shore, let alone feel it.
Sunday, October 8, 2023
Octobers
In everyday chaos of my life, I am reminded on how much power I always give you to break my heart into a million pieces.
Monday, October 2, 2023
De-compartmentalize Me?
Someday you will de-compartmentalize me and ask me how am I doing? And, I will tell you exactly how I am doing without you - Very miserable.